| 4/20 |
[Apr. 20th, 2005|03:18 pm] |
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Happy 4:20 everyone! don't get yourselves too screwed up! |
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| insane |
[Feb. 3rd, 2005|07:01 pm] |
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| | insane | ] |
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| | Tuesday morning By: michelle Branch | ] |
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| SI |
[Feb. 1st, 2005|08:08 pm] |
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| |  peaceful | ] |
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| | Defying Gravity Soundtrack: Wicked | ] |
01. Whats your name? Starbuck
02. Age, Birthday, and Local? 15, febuary 14 1989, Arizona
03. Form of SI?: cut, burn, drugs
04. Why do you SI?: It helped me feel like I was still alive. As long as I could bleed I must still be living. Once I didn't bleed and it scared the shit out of me. At the same time though, I felt good... like i didn't have to live anymore.
06. Where do you most often SI? Arms and legs. Sometimes stomach and hips but rarely.
07. What do you use? My razor and a lighter and a pocketknife.
08. Do you hide it? I don't do it anymore so there's nothing to hide.
09. Do you listen to music while you SI? If so, who? I used to take the music in the bathroom with me or blast it through the house. Normally things like Evanescence or Wicked
10. Anyone know? Want them to? Everyone knows and anyone who doesn't will read this and know.
11. Eating Disorders? I used to make myself throw up as a form of SI. it doesn't leave scars.
12. Mental Disorders? Depression, ADD, OCD, and Unipolar.
13. What would you do if you found cuts on your best friend? I already found some on My friend Miranda. I grabed his wrist and wouldn't let go til she swore never to do it again. It was right after I had gotten out of the hospital so I was trying to be better. |
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| Fun |
[Jan. 28th, 2005|03:44 pm] |
I. Reply to this post with your name, because I would like to say a couple words about you.
II. I will also tell you what song(s) remind me of you when I hear it.
III. I will also tell you what celebrity/movie character/public person you remind me of, either personality-wise or looks-wise.
IV. I will also try to give ONE WORD that I associate with you when I think of you.
V. We all could use a boost now and then, so steal this for your journal and make someone else's day as well. |
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| wow it's been forever. |
[Jan. 23rd, 2005|12:30 pm] |
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| |  hungry | ] |
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| | Allouette and Me by Letters to Cleo | ] |
"Happy giftmas happy new year happy happy" She says with as little conviction as possible. She doesn't seem completely into whatever the hell she happens to be talking about at the moment. If you listened to her you would probably wonder if she even knew what she was saying. It's late january and she's still wondering who she hasn't said happy christmas to. This girl she's known since second grade had her 16th birthday party last night. She went and enjoyed herself to the best of her ability. Parties always seem to get her down. It's not the party itself... It's not anything really... It's just that she thinks too much in the future. About how the party's going to be over soon and she'll have nothing left but memories... if that. She never really seems to enjoy parties unless she's really drunk. But then she doesn't remember them anyway so it's a vicious circle of all hell. She saw some old friends at the party and made some new ones but as always her parents got tired and bored and they had to go home early. She's tried now and wondering if her dad will let her go out for a run... she needs it. She's neglected to work out latly and it's showed. She's got homework too though and her room's a mess. She doesn't really seem to care even though she knows she should. |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 11th, 2004|11:16 pm] |
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| | Silence | ] |
| How to make an Angry_dead_babe |
Ingredients:
5 parts intelligence
5 parts humour
1 part energy |
Method:
Add to a cocktail shaker and mix vigorously. Serve with a slice of fitness and a pinch of salt. Yum! |
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| learn something about me |
[Dec. 9th, 2004|05:27 pm] |
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| |  apathetic | ] |
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| | Are you Happy now | ] |
[ ] I wish I were a different ethnicity.
[ ] I have an eating disorder.
[x] I am short.
[ ] I am tall.
[ ] I think I'm really attractive.
[ ] I prefer winter over summer
[x] I am a geek.
[ ] I am attracted to girls.
[x] I am attracted to boys.
[x] I like British accents.
[x] I smoke regularly.
[ ] I smoke socially.
[x] I drink socially
[ ] I drink regularly.
[x] I get drunk easily.
[x] I do drugs.
[ ] I brush my hair at least 50 times a night
[ ] I am religious.
[x] I am not religious but have morals.
[ ] I have good taste.
[ ] I excel academically.
[x] I am told I have yet to fulfill my potential.
[ ] I am good at sports.
[x] I am good at certain sports.
[ ] I couldn't do sports to save my life.
[x] I am creative.
[x] I am artistically inclined.
[ ] I want to be an artist when i grow up.
[ ] I want to be an engineer when I grow up.
[x] I eat when I'm upset.
[ ] I cannot easily adapt to change.
[x] I am interested in politics.
[x] I have shoplifted.
[ ] I download MP3s.
[x] I've done underage drinking.
[x] I've gone underage clubbing.
[x] I can dance reasonably well.
[ ] I can dance extremely well.
[ ] I dance like a cardboard gorilla.
[x] I can sing.
[ ] I sing like someone stepped on my foot.
[x] I can swim.
[x] I keep a journal.
[x] My teachers don't like me.
[x] I enjoy controversy.
[x] I can be a bitch/bastard.
[x] I'm not sure if I'll get married
[x] I know what monogamy is
[ ] and I believe in it
Now that you know something about me leave a question about what you don't know about me. |
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| Christmas |
[Dec. 4th, 2004|02:38 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | ready | ] |
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| | Bad reputation by joan jett | ] |
So she's getting her brother a dart board for christmas. He's been using foam for a board and pens for darts. She figures she should get him the real deal. She doesn't know what she's getting yet but she's hoping for hair dye, and Mp3 player, and a guitar. |
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| Music |
[Nov. 30th, 2004|05:03 pm] |
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| | full | ] |
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| | my own | ] |
So she's sitting there doing her "homework" listening to music and definitly not writing some music of er own. She can't wait til christmas comes in the hope of getting a guitar. She's sick and tired of trying to play guitar chords on her electric keyboard. Here's what she has so far:
The sun is always shining
ON someone else's parade
But everytime I have one
It always semms to rain
It's not because the worlds so big
Or because I feel so small
It's not that no one knows me
And never seems to call
It's something about selfconfidence
and maybe my love of rain
no matter what I seem to do
it always ends up the same
Fall has come
And the lenonade's finally done
But no one drinks lemonade in the cold
Spring has sprung
And the hot chocolate's ready
But it's spring already
And the lemonade's old |
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| Another fight |
[Nov. 29th, 2004|06:24 pm] |
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So this kid just got kicked out of the play that she's in at school. She had a brawl with her parents and her father said absoutly not when she went to clam down. They don't seem to realize she has a mind and a life of her own and that she's not seven. It doesn't seem to register that she's already on her own and there's nothing they can do about it. They don't realise that she has control over herself only because they raised her to question authority. They raised her to kick ass when something wasn't right. They raised her to be more then she can be. They raised her to set her standards high in fields that aren't the normal fields. she spends more time on the wrold then she does on school and her own life and that tends to slap her in the face and it's all their fault. |
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| Bubble gum |
[Nov. 29th, 2004|05:20 pm] |
So this chick eats practically nothing all day and everything she does eat tastes like cardboard to her. Her cereal and the poptarts she eats to try and get rid of the taste. She's not fat but is slightly over weight. Actually she's about 40 pounds over weight but you've never tell by looking at her. So what does she do? Everything she eats tastes like cardboard for some weird reason and she doesn't want to eat because she wants to lose weight. So she chews gum. Nonstop. She always has a piece of gum in her mouth. her jaw is burning so many calories. She buys a 5 pack of juicy fruit from the art teacher who has a whole wall dedicated to the candy and gum she sells. The juicy fruit is gone in no time and she is tempted to buy another pack. They're only a quarter. But she never gets the chance to return to the art room. She spends all lunch period trying to find someone willing to make her passout. She knows playing the passout game is dangerous with gum in her mouth but that doesn't mean for one second that she'll stop chewing.
A bit about this girl:
" The subject shows an astounding level of intelligence, and her sense of observation is one of her best qualities. Considering this, she shows a lot of potential, but that's only part of the equation.
But what concerns us most about the subject is her sinister and violent attitude. While we almost find it amusing that the subject would rather kill something than suffer a minor inconvenience, it effectively destroys her ability to survive tight situations. Our study suggests there is a large change the subject will end up in prison!
Finally, the subject displayed a pathetic and useless (seriously bad) sense of humor, a nearly satanic lack of morality, and a arrogant and inflated self-confidence. The balance of these three traits is important; high levels of confidence, medium levels of morality, and a good level of humor make for the strongest individuals. " |
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| angry dead babe |
[Nov. 26th, 2004|09:07 pm] |
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| | peaceful | ] |
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| | educated guess by Ani Difranco | ] |
A 15 year old girl is sitting there at the computer late at night doing nothing but trying to keep herself from listening to her own thoughts. She's home with only her brother and nothing stopping her from doing something stupid. She's perfected that... doing stupid things. She plays the pass out game everyday after school and used to be a junkie. her medication keeps her alive but makes her stupid. her brain doesn't move as fast as it used to and it frustrations the hell out of her. She trys to remain calm and in a special state of mind that only she can achieve. A state of mind where nothing can scare her and nothing can hurt her and nothing can do anything to her. It's a state of complete calm and peace. She finds that place within herslef and for a moment she is no longer a angry dead babe. |
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